Miss you like crazy

Silence slumbers in its futile sleep,
And the rest of the world sleeps with it, too
But I can’t close my eyes, my Angel
Because I lie so far away from you.

I close my eyes and there you are,
But when I open my eyes, you elude them
Come to me, my image sweet, why do you,
With my eyes, play such a cruel game?


When I am well you run away, always
Come now at least to my side.
Promise, I shall be a nice boy,
And to all your rules shall abide

Touch you not, bug you never,
Just witness your divine smiles of joy
You be the princess in the palanquin,
I’ll be the admiring roadside beggar boy.

Your voice is all that I get to hear nowadays,
The reasons of which I very well know;
But a hundred reasons shall always be there
To stop us both from together old to grow.

Smile one time, then again, and then one more time
Laugh out loud; and forever shine like a brilliant star
Because you are the only dream that my eyes can see,
Wherever I may be, and wherever you are.

I miss you

A Sparkling moment

With all of the love that you have for me, I felt compelled to share my favorite love story - the following post to my personal blog which references an evening I spent with the woman I love the most.

"As we sat in a cab passing through the busy streets of hyderabad full of strange faces,
soberly observing,imagining the mysteries behind each set of unrecognizable eyes,
I turned to see this smile. A sparkle in ur eyes, ur arms outstretched,
in an instant our bodies were contiguous where, even over the thump, thump of the deafening beat, our hearts rang strong against one another. Tangled together,
we were a pendulum amongst our past and our beautiful future.
For this is the only story that matters. It is kept safe and warm between our beating hearts.Eyes locked, we could not help but smile:
"This is Love."

Thinking of you ..

I just want to sit in bed and snuggle and eat cereal and watch stupid movies with you all day long. I just want to cuddle in your arms looking at the blue sky fade into darkness as we both fall asleep. I just want to lean against you and feel your every heartbeat and do nothing else all day long as you hug me to sleep not letting me go. I love listening to you breathe when you're sleeping cause it calms my heart down. And I just want to be silent and listen to you talk about your past. I just want to cry knowing that you're by my side to cheer me up with hugs and kisses. I just want to piggy back you all day long strolling through the park as I rest my head on your shoulders whispering sweet talks to you. I don't just want to imagine you by my side cause I miss you like crazy, every minute spent without you I'm lost. I just want to tell you that to find someone who will love you for no reason, and to shower that person with reasons, that is the ultimate happiness. Shall we compare our hearts to a garden, with beautiful blooms, swooping birds and sunshine and rain and darkness. I just want to tell you that we loved with a love that was more than love. 

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly. And a bell is no bell till you ring it. And a song is no song till you sing it. And love in your heart, wasn't put there to stay. As love isn't love till you give it away. I gave it away once, but that was brief as when I grieved I realized that I have not actually given it away. Time is definitely too slow for those who wait. Our past is behind us, love is in front and all around us. Though I know a hundred hearts would be too few to carry all my love for you and love is not singular except in syllable as well. I've never felt as comfortable and as relaxed as when I am with you though I am definitely shaking nervously inside screaming at the top of my lungs when you said you love me. I just want to spend every sunset and sunrise with you, feeling your sweet kisses in the morning and before I sleep. I want to wake up with your eyes locked onto mine as I turned over to avoid your eyes nervous and shy. I want to wake up with gray hair and denches still finding ourselves cuddling like everyday. I just want to hold your hands and not talk yet with a comfortable silence that makes me smile to myself silly as I peeked at you and you back at me. Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. I just want to play with your fingers all day long like how you stroked my hair with such gentleness which caught chills down my spine. Sometimes we make love with our eyes. Sometimes we make love with our hands, always we make love with our hearts. And I just want to giggle as you tickle me non stop when I mess around with you and then you pulled me back towards you. I just want to be close to you like how birds appear everytime when you are near. 

I just don't want to miss a thing with you because by missing a thing with you, I'm missing a piece of my life. We are both imperfect as we were meant to perfect each other and love each other till the other doesn't anymore. Tell me you love me will you? Tell me you love me everyday. Tell me over six billion souls in the world, I'm the only one you want. Tell me I'm worth it. Tell me I told you, it's you. Tell me do I love you because you're beautiful, or are you beautiful because I love you? Tell me when love is not madness, it is not love. Tell me there is no surprise more magical than the surprise of being loved. Tell me if I had a single flower for every time I think about you, I could walk forever in my garden. Tell me to the world I might be just one person, but to you, I am your world. Tell me love is a symbol of eternity wiping out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all the fears of ends. Tell me hate leaves ugly scars but love leaves beautiful ones. Tell me I'm yours. I am already yours. For you see, each day I love you more. Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow. So, tell me how many beads are there in a silver chain of evening rain, unravelled from the tumbling main, and threading the eye of a yellow star, so many times I've tried, and I finally found love today, in you. I love you.

A moment to remember

This is how I felt on the day I was about to go out with her for the first time

Anxious yet exciting moments of my life .. 

It felt good. 

Meeting her for the first time, It was as beautiful as watching the snow-clad Himalayan Mountain peaks painted honey-gold by the first rays of sunlight.

 I breathed in slowly, mouth and nose together, relishing the pure, cold, nourishing morning air.

I felt on top of the world, literally and figuratively, as I stood high in the middle of nowhere on a refreshingly cold bright morning, undecided what I was going to do, or where I was going to go.

What greater freedom than not having anything to do or anywhere to go!

I felt I was flying like a bird in the sky, with no one to take my freedom away.

“Something exciting is going to happen today,” said a tingling sensation within me, as if I were on the top of a high roller-coaster ready to plunge into unknown depths.

Suddenly, at the spur of the moment I decided we would do something spontaneous. It has always been the case with me. This moment was really special.

Then there came the moment, I wish I could go back in time again & rejoice the beauty of it.

It was amazing to see her

For a moment, I was scared and discomfited; I quickly avert my eyes and try to disappear into the crowd. I felt ashamed of having eyed her so blatantly. ‘What will she think of me?’ I wonder. 

But soon, by instinct and almost against my will, my eyes begin searching, trying to find her again.

Ah, there she is. She was coming towards me on a muddy road.

She is an exquisite beauty – fair and freshly bathed, her luxuriant black hair flows down her back, her sharp features accentuated by the morning sun, her nose slightly turned up, so slender and transparent, as though accustomed to smelling nothing but perfumes.

I am mesmerized is what I said to myself

Never before had anyone evoked such a delightful tremor of thrilling sensation in me.

I sat next to her, trying to look at her with sidelong glances when I think she isn’t noticing.

She notices.

She looks at me.

Her eyes are extremely beautiful – captivating, dark, expressive.

Suddenly her eyes began to dance, and seeing the genuine admiration in my eyes, she gives me smile so captivating that I experienced a delightful twinge in my heart.

It is a moment I will remember all my life J

Thanks again to my best friend again for making it truly a moment to savor & remember all my life

She is beautiful J

Sweet First times

Your first is always special. It always holds a unique place in your heart and in your life. I am not just talking about the first guy/girl in your life…but of experiences which were a first in your life. It can be anything…be it your first crush, your first drink, your first date, your first kiss, your first love, your first job, your first day in college and many such special moments…they tend to imprint on your memories to be cherished!

These firsts are sometimes also our last. Life is a constant journey filled with bundles of joy and sorrow. We walk through various phases each day making us learn a new aspect about the world around us. Of these, some aspects and people in certain cases, become really special to us, thus securing a niche within us. These moments never cease to exist from our memory.

By now, hopefully this piece is reminding you of some definite yet fortunate incidents that have occurred in your life. So, what is the big deal about these first encounters in our life? Those awkward clashes, running and bumping into people, accidentally jarring towards a solution which you and your peers were breaking your heads on…the list simply goes on!

The process is everlasting which constantly adds that zing and excitement in our lives. In other words, it gives us an opportunity to reinvent ourselves and form new bonds and attachments with people and places. This bond cannot be replaced by any substitute. After all, these attachments are not formed to fade away with time; otherwise being human would cease to exist!

At same time, there are certain experiences which we would like to forget but cannot do so. You guessed it right! I am talking about those goof-ups which we could have avoided but bumped into them. And then we move on thinking to ourselves, “Oh crap! If I could have just avoided him/her…It would have been so much easier otherwise! This is so embarrassing!”  There are other similar instances where we feel, “If I could have answered that question appropriately in the interview, maybe I would have been working in that company today!” But then, how can we forget the biggest of all the remorse of what went wrong in the past – “Agar hum thoda aur padh lete, toh aaj hum bhi doctor ya engineer hote!” And the regrets are endless!

Over a period of time, we realize that these are our first encounters to failure and so, even they are deeply ingrained into our soul. And then we move on again to receive our first paycheck which gives us that feeling of exhilaration which is simply unmatched. Today, we might be at a place where we must be encountering the fresh minds yet what remains with us was the time as a memory when we were those fresh minds.

That feeling of anxiety, nervousness yet being excited on our first bicycle ride, the first car that we bought, the first time we voted and above all, our first crush and first love…they are hard to forget!

When it comes to first crush or first love, it surely does bring back a smile on our face. In most cases, it is either a schoolmate or a teacher whom we secretly admired. As rightly said, first love never fades away! The first date is still cherished; those gifts and love letters are safely stacked away in some corner where no one can find them. The small gestures that we did for our beloved still dwells within us! And in the process, we definitely cannot forget our first heartbreak…nothing could have been more painful than that.

And being a vicious circle, there is a first when we met our better half…it sure is a moment when we promise to spend the rest of our lives together! So, another series of firsts start in the form of our own family. Over a period of time, our life becomes a picture of memories which we look back and smile on.

Love happens .. Believe me it does

Not to get all sappy on you as we near valentine’s day, but i’ve been thinking lately about how people express love. not the mushy-gushy romantic love, necessarily. but friendship, respect, admiration, or just general ‘like’. There are five different ways that people give, and accept, love. the five “love languages” are:
1. words of affirmation,
2. quality time,
3. receiving gifts,
4. acts of service,
5. physical touch.


Every person has a primary love language. this means that they feel love most when it is shared with them in this particular language. think about how you can apply this in every one of your relationships (direct report, significant other, friend, neighbor, customer, etc). her primary love language is gifts? bring her a key chain from your trip to the grand canyon and the gesture will mean the world to her. take out her garbage (act of service), and she may not acknowledge the gesture. In my case, She expects nothing but love from me .. i love her more than i could express in words
however- sometimes we express love in OUR primary language; not theirs. this can lead to misunderstandings and conflict, because people are not necessarily ‘hearing’ the love that you’re giving.
for example, say your mom’s primary love language is quality time. this means that she really values the time that you two spend together (cooking, jogging, watching movies), and sees those experiences as a declaration of your love for her. however- if you are not aware that her primary love language is quality time, you may think that sending her a card on her birthday shows her that you love her. but in all actuality, she would have felt it so much more if you showed up at her doorstep on her birthday. she would have heard that expression of love loud and clear.


what your primary love language? and do you make yourself aware of those of the people around you? answering these questions is a helpful exercise. it strengthens the method of communication between two people, and helps ensure that the ‘love’ that’s being given, is also received.

Keep it interesting

In modern day relationships, people look for partners who make their lives more interesting.

Now i’m not married, nor do i claim to be an expert in the (romantic) relationship department.  but i would claim with a fair amount of conviction that this argument applies to every relationship.
we are friends with people that open our minds.  we enjoy the company of those who challenge our thinking; give us a different perspective or point of view.  we like to be around people who do things that we’ve never done.  traveled to unique and exotic places.  jumped out of airplanes.  hiked mountains.  challenged convention.  we’re drawn to these people – not only because it’s actually quite exhilarating to be around them – but because they make us feel better about ourselves and our lives, too.
and i would argue that we actually  like ourselves more, when we consider ourselves to be as interesting as the people we strive to be around.  the article refers to the process of accumulating knowledge and experience as “self-expansion”.  the more frequently we infuse our minds and our lives with new things – the more fulfilled we feel. 

while it doesn’t always seem convenient or safe or responsible -  perhaps this year is the year for adventure.  the year to shake things up a little.

play a few mind games with yourself:  next time your first instinct is to say “no.”   suppress it – take a deep breath.  and say “yes.    it can be a trip across the city, or a trip across the world.  a new class, a new acquaintance, a new food, or a new hobby, habit, or interest.    science tells us our relationships - and our happiness - depend on it.
this article suggests that we also make it a point to surround ourselves with people who – in some small or big way – make us better.   so if we want to live a life of experience, emotion, exuberance, and continuous improvement  - we’ve got to surround ourselves with people that make a habbit of doing so with theirs.

here’s to action – and adventure – and to keepin’ it interesting.  

Live your life

People spend years shying away from passions, likes, tendencies, quirks, styles, habits, hobbies, or loves that are within them. they muffle them down and stiffle their progress; for fear of failure, rejection, judgement, disdain. we put our true selves on ‘mute’ in an effort to stick to the safer, more routinely traveled.

I did this for a time; i think we all do it at some point in our lifes. for some length, for some seemingly pragmatic reason.

But it is important to understand (and take to heart), that you were put on this planet to embrace that quirky, sophisticated, daring, silly, edgy, unique, passionate, shy, loveable human being that you are!!!

Don’t take that glory away from yourself. study it. embrace it. celebrate it. bask in it. analyze it. but more important than anything else in this world – love it! your light is in there – you can’t be afraid to flip the switch.
be exactly who YOU are and rock your way out of it. it’s way more fun than being anybody else.

Always live life the way you want ..

If you are a follower of my blog you will know that this is dedicated to my best friend .. she has redefined my life. I have rediscovered my passion for writing again ..

I have started living my life again .. have you ???

My First Date

Girl .. How should i start this .. I have been waiting to take the woman i love the most .. There has always been a speculation whether she would agree for a date or not .. after waiting it out .. she finally agrees to go out the week after 1st Jan 2011 . It is a huge moment for me .. now that she said she would go out with me .. She had a condition .. No gifts ..I had to agreed to it ..She is Smart .. I had a whole in front of me to plan things out .. I did plan so many things. Had divided the map of hyderabad into green zones (less crowded) & Red zone (Crowded Places) .. There are so many places to visit in Hyderabad (City of Pearl) But i was not able to find one for me .. Made atleast three to four plans .. Called one of my friends to ask his car for the date. He agreed .. Time passed .. It was friday and the day after was the D-day for me .I could barely contain my excitement that I'm finally meeting my best friend & the woman i love the most for the first time outside. Even though i have been out with her on different occassions. This was different. I wanted to be a stand out in the crowd.

It was saturday, I didnt sleep for a second.. Anticipating a really nice day ahead. It started out on a amusing note as i tripped right at the entrance.. But regained balance.. There was another hurdle in my path .. My friend backed out and so i was left with no car and i couldnt imagine taking my girl in bus or train for that matter.. I was almost lost and Blank .. I was moments away from meeting my sweetheart and spending the whole day with her ..I was sitting on my bed waiting when I heard the phone ring, It was her message .. The message " Tell me the time & plan ". Told her that i wouldnt getting the car & told her to get ready by 10.30 .. Called the cab service .. I started from my House at 9.45 am in the morning .. The cab driver was a tired man and looked like he needs sleep or he might drive me into one of the drainages next to the road. I drove the car with thoughts about meeting her. The anxiety turned to nervous excitement. She called me up to confirm whether i had started .. told her i was on my way .. Through the traffic and choas .. Reached the place .. she was walking to the place she told me to wait .. I couldnt wait a second. Asked the cab driver to drive towards the way she is coming from .. There She was, really dressed up for the Occassion . I couldnt just take my eyes off her..I had butterflies in my stomach , my mind started to race, and I couldn’t wipe the smile off my face. She just saw me and sat in the car. I pinched myself couple of times to make sure it wasnt a dream because it was too good to believe it was true that she with me ..

We started our journey together. I was just looking at her. I did feel little bad because she hardly had any sleep .. She asked me about the plan. I told her that i had planned to take her Ohri's 1857\Eatstreet.. She gracefully disagreed to it. Told her about the plan for the day.. She said she doesnt want to go there .. Shuffled the plans all over .. Finally we started off to the place i first decided (Sanghi Temple).. It was far and we did have time in our hands .. As usual, I started my banter and she patiently listended to it, Smiling away ;-) ..

Finally we did sanghi temple after going round & round .. It's been quite sometime i had been to sanghi temple.. Much to our disappointment. The Temple was closed and the time was 12.45 or 1 pm .. Normal days it is open from 8 am - 12 pm & 4 pm - 8 pm .. We couldnt wait that long.. headed back to the place where we started our journey .. I was cursing my luck and probably bad planning on my behalf .. Trust me i thought she would be upset and angry .. But she amazed me .. She just smiled back at me assuring that it's ok ..

It was lunch time and we stopped by a restuarant which was not that great but we had to contend with .. I walked through the restuarant making my way to the Family Section. Sat at one corner .. I wouldnt give the details of the menu here .. But we spent more than one & half hour to have our lunch .. I just every minute of it because i was with her .. I so wanted to hold her hand & walk through the restuarant .. After a not so lavish lunch, We started heading back to her place. She opened the chocolate i got for her .. I snatched a piece of it .. I so wanted to feed her but she refused .. She requested me to eat .. In hyderabadi, main bhaaw kha raha tha, ladki ka sar fir gaya. almost bolne wali thi ki baad main jaa.. It was now my turn to ask her to request me again.. she did and It was the cutest moment of the day ..

Got down at her place. It was 5.30 and i didnt want to let her go .. walked to a super market .. did some windows shopping .. I really relish & Cherish the time i get to spend with her .. We had Pani Puri, walked to the bus stop. She asked me to go but i insisted on walking her home. Initially she said no and we started walking towards her place . The road was a disaster .. Through the dark till the turning of her house . I was with her .. Just when i was about to say sorry. She interrupted me by saying " I really had a wonderful day ", even better thing was in store for me .. She held my hand & hugged me from side .. I didnt expect a hug but when she did, She made me realize regardless of where we go, those feelings remain.  And this time, for me, it’s a bit more special because she hugged me and said " me too " when i said " Sweetheart, I Love You "..

I was tired but then the excitement took over .. i was literally jumping on the road , dancing and singing awfully but who cares .. I was happy soul ..


Even though plan didnt work as expected. I had the best day of my life because i spent the entire day with her . I could witness her beautiful smile, naughtiness, playful nature .. She brings the best in me ..

I love the “first date” feelings I got.  The excitement, nervousness, wonder-what-she’s-thinking…


Wish to be with her soon again ..

To know more .. Stay tuned



P.S. :  I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours

Pretty Woman

People .. As you know this blog is dedicated to my best friend and my sweetheart .. This is again about her .. how much she inspires to write and post

A woman is a soft, delicate , magnificent creation of god.When you think of the word " Woman ", what comes to  your mind first .. think & think ..  that's right .. you are thinking right .. Beautiful, Pretty, Elegant & so on .. Have you ever wondered or cared to know why are they so special ??

Let me try telling you,

Sight of woman is always a delight for every man ..It is refreshing as fresh petals with dew drops glistening & eyes of tender leaves smiling. Woman's smile is the ajar flowers, inside there is the poem and the picture overflowing, but also has the silent music.Ever tried looking beyond that . You will see that every woman is beautiful ..


Gentleness is woman's weapon, one of expression of woman charm. No matter how she looks, if she is gentle, she is always like spring's flower, gives you special fragrance, its summer rain, strokes and washes your tears on face, is autumn's gentle breeze, whispers to you secretly sweet things, its winter melody that sings for you pure and clear song.Talking to and living with such a woman always gives you hope and inspiration to life. Guess i kind of lost my track here but this what happens when i talk with my sweetheart .. she makes me go crazy and i love that in her . She is my Inspiration. Step out and find yours too ..


Most people think the woman's charm comes from her beauty outside. Her outside beauty is compared to the star filled sky or an early morning sunrise,a flower, the way the wind blows, shades of the sky, rainbows, waterfalls, birds singing. I know almost of men like beautiful woman, who is beautiful . But i believe that the depth and warmth of the heart will touch and hold you  in the cycle of happiness much longer than when you only touch the glow of soft skin or gaze at sparkling eyes. Beautiful woman is the woman believes she is beautiful, she always tells herself that and believes that amidst all doubt. And then all people around her will see her beautiful too. Beauty has its own voice, but you cant hear it if you dont give the ears to your heart.
She makes you not only admire magnificence of her soul but the way she sheds tears and softness of her words.You can only feel value in each word she says, but the knowledge of when to hold it and the journey she has taken to learn. When she gives you courage, you can know not only strength of her dertermination to fight and struggle, but confidence to say yes or no and willingness to go ahead. You can feel her grace not only through her dance but each note of love she has left and warm arms she has spreaded over her family with silent sacrifice. It shows woman beauty comes much more from her strength inside.If you can appreciate them, gaze deep inside, you will find the key to her heart.

This is for U Sweetheart