Random Thoughts

I was just walking by passing through the guitars and keyboards on sale when this beautiful melody tantalizes my senses. Oh I really feel so alive as if I’m suddenly an angel drifting through clouds of heavenly symphony. Along with that feeling flashbacks suddenly enter my reverie bringing me back to the time when I first know you. The feelings where so raw as if it was just yesterday once again when it suddenly hit me why of all the people that I've meet you’re the only one who made a big difference in my life.

You were just a refreshing diversion from all those freaks and weirdos I’ve meet before. But besides the facade you show to the world I sense something within you I can emphathize. You creep inside this heart of mine trying to revive its dying beat. You put warmth to a once cold soul and bring a glow to my pale colorless world.

After a long time waiting and now I see you in the face of reality and I can’t believe that what my heart tells me is real. I don’t know what is it with you, I don’t know why I feel this so but all I know is that you make me feel alive. The simple things that you do without you even realizing it makes me go on with my life. I’m not too overly dramatic about it nor too sentimental I’m past that stage but your presence did make a great impact in my life. I thank you for so many things, I even thank you for the time in between the long wait with all the confusion and question because by then I’ll really know that what I feel for you is real. I don’t know where the road will lead us I don’t know about the future at all but one thing I do know is you will be my Best friend for life .

Simple Joys of Life :-)

It’s beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart..

Her personality right away captured my heart.  I often think that one of the challenges of SMS or email  is that your tone and personality isn’t easily conveyed.I still would love to send a letter to the people i care if they are comfortable.

Our life is compose of a series of moments, not the bigger picture, not the drama, not the search for total bliss nor the happily ever after. Oftentimes we want to stay in a certain situation forever that we wish it to never end but as there is beginning so there must be an ending.Why can’t we stay in a particular situation forever, why must it have to move on and change because for me the beauty of life is not the bigger picture or happily after. The beauty lies in the moments. Sometimes we forget to savour the moment we rush so fast to things that needs to be done, to goals that needs to be achieve, to problems need to be fix and so on and so forth but we forget to just sit and relax and see and enjoy that moment for once its gone you can never really go back to it.


There are moments that I savor so much that I keep them close to my heart and I thank all those people who share those moments with me for without them it wouldn’t be as memorable. I have my moments of joy, moments of tears, moments of triump, moments of englighten, moments of great friendship, moments of love, moments of letting go, moments of surprise, moments of lost, moments of betrayal, moments of being special that I thank God everyday of my life for the moments that made my day beautifully bless. It might not be much to some, I might not be as successful nor as achiever as other people but I’m grateful for the friends I’ve met along the way who share special moments with me.

I am now officially dedicating this Blog to one of my Best friends who had always been there for me when i needed support. she had never been judgemental. She knows me better than my shadow .

Honest Confession : Sometimes i really wish if i could get a girl like her .She is  a Beautiful Woman with a Innocent Smile.

Beautiful Beginning

This Thursday, My friend (rohit) & me teased her (Aarti)  all day that they were so ready for this baby, she had to either come Friday or Saturday. Every time he called his wife   from work, he told her that she should be out jogging. she didn't jog, but she did walk like crazy through the streets of our neighborhood. Friday night, the pains started coming...nothing horribly uncomfortable but some significant cramps that were semi-regular and popped up several times through the night. By morning, She had several Cramps that were 15-20 minutes apart, and her doctor, convinced her that they would go fast once rohit was in full swing,I suggested to go to the hospital within a few hours. I remember getting off the phone and it hit me. Today was going to be the day. It was surreal. I texted my friends. And began the last steps in the ever long process of saying goodbye to my parents.

I called my friend (Shwetha) . I met her at my friend's get together&I knew that she was a delivery nurse...and we have been friends.

It was strange. It seemed so real and yet It felt like i  had dreamed of this moment for so long, it seemed a bit like a dream as well. It all just hit me...They had waited for this. But i was living this dream :-)


The early stages of labor were perfectly beautiful. Nothing hurt that bad according to aarti, she had the anticipation of this eutopian experience ahead of her, Rohit was chill, and my other girl friends started trickling in the room. They actually started playing a game...the "if you could..." cards I had packed in my bag for this very purpose. I had it perfectly planned, and it was going just as we had imagined...but better.


By 9:00, Her water had been broken and her contractions were in full force. The room was full of excitement and laughter.She was chatting with her friends until a contraction came on where she shifted gears, "ow-ow-ow-ow-ow'd" her way through it (and cursed), and came out of it as fast as she went in, picking up the conversation where they left off. I checked to make sure Rohit was okay.He was nervous. Gave him a Big Hug ... Boy he was shivering ..She liked the commotion...She loved the anticipation. she loved the feeling of people waiting anxiously for her baby. they felt special. ...and we all were so ready.


Two hours went by and she was off the wall in pain,  This is where things begin to get hazy. It all just happened so fast.Rohit was getting uneasy,Her friends talking her through it.Her Pediatrician stopped in to say 'hi' during her rounds, and her obstetrician walking in and gowning up. This was it.They were going to tell her 'just one more' and then suddenly your life is going to change.


She couldn't grasp it even then. It was all just happening so fast and she wanted to savor it.Just then Rohit pulled me in and  just Told her"You are about to meet your daughter. You are about to be changed for good."


At this moment, we heard the sounds of their birth song begin to fill the room...When You Love Someone.

And she began to cry.

One more push.

Oh, this is so hard...

Rohit was shivering and couldnt look at aarti who was in pain.

She pushed. She pushed and watched as the tiniest little body came out of her, arms flailing, lungs wailing...and then, they put her in her arms.

Boy .. I knew this was special .That was the most defining moment of their life. That was the beginning of this story.

She  was taken to the warming bed where nurses nervously smiled as they checked her over. she wanted someone to tell me what was going on...she kept asking if she was okay, and they told her she was fine. She was crying and pink and just perfectly healthy. she wanted to say the words, but couldn't. So, she asked why her nose was smooshed...why she looked funny. And because she came out posterior and so quickly, many people in the room honestly thought she'd look a little different in an hour or so.

Aarti exclaimed that she remembers the feeling....nothing. As if she has literally left her body for a bit.

The hallway was still filled with everyone who was waiting...and there are stories from our other wonderful friends and family of what happened behind those walls while they waited. All we knew was that there was more love in that birthing center than the place could hold. As anxious eyes re-entered the room, she held my baby and told them all, crying, what we had been told. she knew there was a stream of friends ready to come and celebrate.

We just remember happiness. From everyone. All of the blessed souls in that room celebrated as if there was nothing but joy. Everyone knew...and there were a few puffy eyes, but mostly, it was pure happiness. More friends trickled in. More smiles. More toasts. And hugs with no words...hugs like we've never felt. Ones that spoke volumes...arms pulled tightly around her neck, lips pressed against her forehead and bodies that shook with sobs...sobs that told her they felt it too...they felt her pain and they wanted to take it away.


And Rohit...well, he never left his girl's side. He was quiet through this all, and I'm not sure I'll ever know what he felt, but I know that he is a happy daddy of this young princess, and I know he knows nothing but to love them with all his heart. And he did from the very start.

As soon as the epidural wore off,Aarti changed into nightgown. They were going to take her to  new room upstairs, and she was ready for a new start. Everyone carried our stuff up and waited for us. And then...the moment she always wanted to talk about...the moment they put her in that wheelchair and place the baby in her arms...and stroll you through the hallways to your room while onlookers smile and wish they were you & that was one of the most beautiful moments of her life.


There is so much more I could write...and I will...in chapters of our book.

I had promised Rohit to be there on this journey and that alone means more than we can ever tell you. To be loved...is the greatest feeling one can ever feel.

I remember hugging Rohit when he was crying.He had a cute little prayer to offer . he told himself if God would make this a smooth journer, he'd do anything. he'd live in a box, he'd sell everything he had, he'd be happy with nothing


Life moves on. And there have been lots of tears since. There will be. But, there is us. Our Family. We will embrace this beauty and make something of it. We will hold our precious gift and know that we are lucky. I feel lucky. I feel privileged. I feel there is a story so beautiful in store...and we get to live it. Wow.

The story has begun...

There's been so much wonder I've wanted to share...but I knew I had to tell her story first. More to come... This was the beauty of life...and the funny...and the hectic...it's been crazy.


...but beautiful.




More to come .. Stay Tuned ...

Defining Moments in Life

This is probably the hardest thing I've ever had to write in my entire life. The hardest and yet the most beautiful. As I even just begin to type here, late, in the dark in my room alone ... It just feels it was yesterday that i witnessed something beautiful. It's been almost a week now .A week. How can it already have been a week? I've thought a million times what I'm going to write here and how I'm going to begin and what order I'll put it in and I think I've been so afraid to come back here...so afraid of not doing justice for that Wonderful Moment...of leaving something out...of attaching simple words to an event that is so far from simple, it might just not be possible. But I need to get it out. I don't know how it's going to come or if it will make sense, but I'm just going to write.. Still i have a fresh reminiscence of what happened that day ..  

Now when i recollect those beautiful moments .. i get goose bumps, smiling from ear to ear, and daydreaming about the person behind the poetic Inspiration. She walked in with grace and elegance that i failed to capture before. The Build up leading to this evening was exhilarating . The level of excitement and anticipation was rapidly building. This was THE MOMENT i had been waiting for quite sometime. The moment she entered .There was a spring in her stride. I couldnt help but ogle at her as if my eyes were fixed. She sat right next to me .. I was stealing glances at her whenever i had the oppurtunity .. My mind was so captivated that it started acting as if i was painting blank canvas with colors never seen before . Every stroke was more perfect than the next, slowly and gracefully converging to build a flawless masterpiece.

It was obvious to the clouds and the stars, who were always watching over her, that she had a gift.  She was an artist.  And she knew it too.  She felt it in every fiber of her being.There were other women who also were pretty but none with everything what i was looking for. Compassion and a lively spirit with a tinge of innocence & naughtiness :-) She had that magical aura and had a temperament that doesn't exist in most of the women.She was intimidating at times ..she was perfect.  She had everything that a man can ever want in a woman.I heard myself say " She is just perfect, I would be lucky if i can find someone like her ".She's so beautiful and also natural.I wondered If the voice was coming from outside, or was it his? Was it a dream, or reality?

I’ve always believed in the beauty of a great journey – discovering new places, seeking life experiences, fostering relationships and pursuing my dreams.  In fact, it’s all I’ve ever really wanted to do.  I just want to believe in something that’s worth believing in and then pursue it with every facet of my being.Such journeys, I’ve found, are best when we share them with others who, like me, are ‘crazy’ enough to assume that our wildest dreams are just a brief distance away from reality.

It is 2 AM, but I am wide awake and inspired to write about the epiphany I had in my dreams. I powered on my laptop and opened the word processor I use for blogging.  After gazing at the blank white screen for several minutes, I placed my fingers on the keyboard finally to write about that Magical Moment .. WOW is all i can say when i recollect those moments again ... 

 

Just another a tribute to that Beautiful woman who had given me another chance to smile and cherish these moments ..

She looked just amazing ... :-) 

This is dedicated to that beautiful who has had a great impact in my life ... She knows who i am talking about  :-) 

Moments That Take Your Breath Away

I was just thinking and I decided that I want to start a series of blogs entitled, obviously, Moments That Take Your Breath Away. It is inspired by one moment in particular that I was just thinking about for some reason that I still can’t quite figure why. Anyway, here is that moment.

It was raining outside, the weather was beautiful and as they say romance was in the air.

I traveled through the most horrific traffic till date. I was not happy. As i entered the place, It was so peaceful. Just then something caught my attention which brought an instant smile to my face. I just forgot about the chaos and was looking forward for more of it:-P. Let me describe that moment.

She was wearing a dress (Shorter Version of Anarkali Kurti) in which she looks the prettiest rather i should say most beautiful at least according to me. She was an exquisite beauty - tall, fair and beautiful, her luxuriant black hair flowing down her back, her sharp features accentuated by the glowing lights, her nose slightly turned up, so slender and translucent.

I could not take my eyes off her. I was thinking this in my mind “She’s looking amazing, yaar!” Just then my conscious told me “Hey, you shameless Idiot– don’t ogle so blatantly – if she finds out you’ll be up the gum-tree!” I experienced a strange feeling of elation. 

In that mood, there was so much to say –but the words were hard to come by. It was just magical moment for me. Remember i told you that i was not happy after having to drive through the worst traffic that day. This moment made me forget about that.

There was a conspiratorial look in her expressive eyes; for once inviting and taunting, and she radiated an extraordinary magnetic allure that had me awestruck.

I really don't know whether she knew or not that it was her Smile which was her piece de resistance, the quintessence of her persona, the key facet of her loveliness, her attractiveness, her exquisite beauty, her captivating aura;

I sat next to her, mesmerized. I could not take my eyes off her.  I had never seen anyone so beautiful, so appealing. This definitely was one of the WOW Moments everyone looks forward to once in a while J

There were million thoughts running in my mind... I even remembered something i learned when i was in my 10th class. 

She's beautiful, and therefore to be wooed;
She is a woman, therefore to be won. 

There is something beautiful, touching and poetic when we come across something that catches your eye.. A joy to watch. Boy, that’s when you feel like saying “Life is not the amount of breaths you take, it's the moments that take your breath away.”

And now I eagerly await my next encounter with the beautiful lady.

I’ll sure tell you all about it when i encounter a moment like this again... This was simply breathtaking J

She knows whom I’m talking about. 

Romantic Evening :-)

My idea of a perfect evening out would start with a picnic on a very secluded bluff overlooking the ocean. Dinner would consist of a variety of finger foods that we could feed to each other as sit closely together and watch the waves roll in. After we would eat, we would watch the sun set, wrapped in each others arms. Snuggling, we would then talk about whatever we felt like talking about or just enjoy the warmth of each other's arms as the stars one by one would fill the night sky. The radio would be playing softly, of course tuned into a love songs only station. When our favorite song would start to play on the radio, we would dance slowly under the stars, holding each other tightly. Letting the words of the song speak to each other's heart, we would begin to give into our passion. And then under the stars, with the sound of the gentle waves caressing the shore, we would ... well, being a romantic , I'm sure that you can figure out what would happen next all on your own." :-P This is just a Beginning of a Beautiful evening ;-)